His Love

I am learning so much about my gracious savior everyday and I love it. I know that He loves me no matter what I do. I know that I am the apple of His eye. I also realized that as I was driving to work this morning He even loves me when I fall. Some times I get scraped up and sometimes I get bruised, but it never fails that whatever I do as long as my heart is repenting than He is there with His big, strong daddy hands to pick me up and comfort me. I know that no matter what I do He loves me and long before I was even a thought God knew my name and had me chosen for such a time as this. I fail all the time. A mean thought, a sarcastic remark, an unnecessary look, a bad attitude, a prideful expression, all of it is all the same, it draws us away from the one we love so much. And then comes the discipline, what we try to avoid at all costs.
I remember being a little girl and getting into trouble for things like talking back to my mom or sticking out my tongue at her when I didn't want to listen. So then I would undeniably have to then proceed to do, what I like to call, The walk of shame. I had to walk down the hall to my bedroom which only at these times did it seem like the longest hallway ever, and proceed to wait for my mom to grab the wooden spoon and walk down that hall to my room. I would anxiously wait for her to turn into my room and shut the door. I always wanted her to feel awful for punishing me and so I would cry and try to talk my way out of it. That NEVER worked but then I would have to assume the spanking position. Over her knee and she would spank me for my own good. I know especially in these days alot of people are opposed to it and that is OK for them but in the bible it says;"Spare the rod, spoil the child." So then I would proceed to make another HUGE scene because I was hurt physically and spiritually because I was disciplined by her. I can clearly remember those things but I can tell you that the best part was after she was done fighting me, she would sit me on her knee as I cried and she would hold me. She would always rock back and forth, Holding me and telling me in my ear that she loves me. She would never let me think that she only wanted to discipline me she wanted me to know that she loved me and that is why she did that. I tear up even now to think that my mom saw through my brattyness or my backtalk and saw my heart. I needed to be trained in how to act more polite and respectful. Well isn't that in a way what God does for us? He lets us fall or He disciplines us and we cry and make a fuss but when all is said and done, He picks us up, sets us on His knee, rocks us, hugs us, and then so gently says, " I love you and you have to learn from this." That in as weird as that sounds brings comfort to me. I am not sure if this is comforting to you as it is to me. I know that I would rather sit on His lap and let Him rub my hair and rest in His presence than to be far from Him because I was disobedient. I am not saying I want to be disciplined when I do wrong but I would much rather that then to not be close to Him. Can you feel it His amazing arms picking you up and just loving on you? Let Him love on you today.

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Sarah Markley said…
What an encourager you are to anyone who reads this! love you!
August 16, 2007 at 11:43 AM
tiffsblog said…
Miss you and love hearing your heart.
Kisses to you my sweet friend.
August 19, 2007 at 2:31 PM
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