Unapologetically and Honestly Loving Others with Reckless Abandon

I know that I have been sharing alot of music lately, but there is something about it that I believe is used to soothe the soul. It is talked about alot, especially by David in the Old Testiment. Sometimes words don't get conveyed as well unless it is through song. Have you noticed that. You can say anything in mere words and it just may not convey the intensity or the sadness without song. I am sure you are well aware that when a director of a movie wants to prepare you for something that music is played lightly to subconsiously prepare you for what is about to happen. "Jaws" is a good example, you know that when you hear those few notes during the movie that the shark is on the prowl. This goes for anything, same way that your eyes are the doorways to your soul, but I believe it is just as much the ears as it is the eyes, if you don't hear the music to "Jaws" then your heart doesn't begin to race, your pulse increase, and you sit a bit more on the edge

Ok so I know its been a bit but I wanted you to know that God has sparked some new things in me. I have recently been encouraged to listen to a band that a lot of my friends have been listening to. Si I went to see them live and they were AMAZING! Typically it isn’t my style of music but they are definitely ordained by God. I really like one of the songs that they played at the end of their set. I have been listening to it for weeks. I am a totally addict in regards to this song and I can’t seem to listen to it enough. I want it to penetrate my soul. The other day after listening to it about 5x’s on the way home, Yes I said 5x’s. It finally hit me that he was singing about something that TOTALLY happened in my life. I couldn’t believe it. I realized why I connected with this song. I am so glad. Even now as I write this, it comes up for me to listen to on my iPod. My point in telling you this is that you NEVER know what God will use to continue to heal your past hurts, BE OPEN!!! I was

”We are to be pitied who content ourselves with so little. God, says He, has infinite treasure to bestow, and we take up with a little sensible devotion, which passes in a moment. Blind as we are, we hinder GOD, and stop the current of His Graces. But when He finds a soul penetrated with a lively faith, He pours into it His graces and favors plentifully: there they flow like a torrent, which, after being forcibly stopped against its ordinary course, when it has found a passage, spreads itself with impetuosity and abundance. Yes, we often stop this torrent by the little value we set upon it. But let us stop it no more; let us enter into ourselves and break down the bank which hinders it. Let us make way for grace’ let us redeem the lost time, for perhaps we have but little left. Death follows us close; let us be well prepared for it: for we die but once; and a miscarriage there is irretrievable. The time presses, there is no room for delay, our souls are at stake. I believe you have tak

This last weekend, I went on a retreat, the theme was about “Worship”. It was amazing to see the different takes on Worship as a whole and to see other views on it too. The most impressive thing for me is to see that there are a lot of people who didn’t really understand that Worship is very specific and yet all inclusive. They didn’t see that service to God is Worship, that praying was Worship, or that intercession was important and also under the umbrella of Worship. I was surprised to see that this wasn’t considered Worship to some. It was interesting that to others Worship was ONLY what we did on a Sunday Morning and it involves music and singing. Clearly the Bible tells us differently although that is apart of what Worship is, that is NOT its entirety. Ever thought that saying “Thank you Jesus” is Worship? Did you think that you very acknowledgement of Him was the very point of Worship? Did you think that you could be ALONE to Worship? Worth-Ship is where this comes from and I lov

I am sitting in bed writting thru raw tears, tears of frustration with myself, tears of commanding my soul to praise God even when my flesh doesn't want to, tears of confusion, and tears of uncertainty, tears of hope and tears anguish! If all of those things and more are possible to feel all at the same time, it is coming out and all from the same place in my heart. Is it possible to feel these things at once? Well I am feeling them and eventhough they are all very real, they aren't all accurate. I'm feeling frustrated because I believe that God asked me to do something that seems to be very hard for me to do, yet in Faith I did it! Trusting in the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. So boldly I asked God for something, then I just counted on it and yet it didn't happen. Now in the moments after it not taking place are these moments that I am writing thru now. This is the reason for the tears. Now I hate crying! My mom always told me as a young girl growing up to STOP cryi

Life doesn't always bring easy things to us, infact most of the time it doesn't, yet we are to enjoy life?!? How can we do this with a good attitude and still keeping our Faith intact? How can we carry the weight of not only OUR burdens but the burdens of others and still remain faithful to God? Sound like a burning question on your heart today? I am someone who, like I've said before, wants to fix things and help others but not always is that my job. Most of the time it isn't actually to do that, MY "JOB" is to take it to the Lord! But I do believe that there are other times when God has surrounded us with people who love and care for us enough that are to actively participate in helping us. And vice versa, when it comes to certain things. For example, why do we have funerals? Yes, to celebrate a life but really, we go for the living and not the dead. Why do we go to weddings and sometimes participate in them? Same reason, to show our love and support. Now th

God is calling me to a new and deeper level of Trust with him. Trust, to a point, comes easily for me. I trust you until you have done something to hurt me, or until my spirit says otherwise. But unrelenting trust isn’t something that is a natural reaction, my natural reaction is to try and figure it out. I want to confront the problem, come up with a solution and then tie it up in a pretty little bow, but how doesn’t that make me a better person? I want to be better in this specific area in my life and the only way to do that is to walk through it. I want to make plans and move forward with things and others in my life, yet HIS timing is ALWAYS PERFECT, His way is ALWAYS BETTER, and His will is ALWAYS RIGHT! I am living on a constant state of uncertainty at this time in my life. There are a ton of questions and a ton of things calling me to pay attention to them, Instead of what really matters! I am living in a constant state of, not ONLY surrender, but of constant reliability on God.

Isn't it funny how we have been trained that hunger is a bad thing? I find it ironic that the thing God uses to bring us to him, is exactly what the world would have us think is bad! I was driving home from work today with alot of questions, fears and anxiety screaming at me. To me that is a form of hunger. When the enemy is trying to remind you of who you were and what you have done. Then i realized that this pushing wasnt from God, thats when i determined it was time to do something about the screaming. Scream back out of MY HUNGER for God. Out if my hunger for His word, and out of my hunger for His presence. When it comes to that point I just had to do all I know to do and that is Praise the Lord with all that I am! I was driving on the Toll road and as I was there singing, it felt like no one else was there! The hills were displayed with tall green grass, yellow and purple flowers everywhere and with the sun shining! "Hungry" was playing and I was amazed at the peace

Today I am sharing two songs that are my heart towards God. I listen to them all the time and I love what they convey. The first is what I see myself doing A LOT and desire to change. The second is usually how I feel after I have sat in His presence and just taken Him in. The middle portion is where He does all the work. I hope this blesses you. I am being RAW and exposing a bit of what I am feeling even at this moment. I just want you to know that if you feel this way too, God is BIGGER! Thank you for letting me share my heart today, openly and honestly. "You turned water into wine - how extraordinary Gave sight to the blind - and still I carry My own load when you told me To take your yoke ‘cause yours is easy And I don't wanna box you in You've been doing big things since the world began Sometimes I just don't wanna believe That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah! I don't wanna box you in You've been doing big things since the world began

“I don't understand Your ways Oh but I will give You my song Give You all of my praise You hold on to all my pain With it You are pulling me closer And pulling me into Your ways Now around every corner And up every mountain I'm not looking for crowns Or the water from fountains I'm desperate in seeking, frantic believing That the sight of Your face Is all that I need I will say to You It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it all I believe this It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it all I believe this You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it all I believe this You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it all I believe this “-Worth it all, Rita Springer This song says so much of my heart in it. I love her heart being so bare and raw in showing her affection for her King, and the Lover of her Soul. I love the

Why are we always so surprised when God answers us? Why do we think He doesn’t hear us when we ask? What lies about God have we believed to come to this conclusion? Why do we say we believe and then when talking to another believer say, “Can you believe what God did?” I ask these questions because I find it so funny. If we are TRULY walking out our faith and asking God for things, seeking his face, and knocking on doors until they open, then WHY in the world should we be SHOCKED when He answers. Now this is only my opinion but shouldn’t we EXPECT God to hear us, if we approach him with a pure heart? Shouldn’t we EXPECT that He will answer us? Shouldn’t we EXPECT that He will do exceedingly abundantly above ALL we could ask or think, according to HIS riches in Glory? Is that what your bible says? It is what mine says. SO then why in the world are we NOT using this faith to reach the lost? Why are we so surprised when things go right, and yet most of the time think automatically they wil

So lately I have had a hard time being open to God. The possibilities He may have that I need and it may be VERY unconventional. I haven’t fallen away and I haven’t done anything wrong it has just been a season of being more focused and not as open to what He may want for my life. I feel like I have been on a journey of walking and going ahead of God at times, and I want to ask for every step to His plan. I am not a person who lives with regret. I don’t hang on to the past in some sort of way dragging all those things into my future. My mom told me along time ago that people and things happen to you, we may not ever know why, but accept them as God’s plan and learn what you need to. I have tried very hard to live that way. I think hanging on to the things from your past, doesn’t always allow your future to be as fresh and new. I know that something we can’t get away from but I do know we can, not allow it to confine us to live with that for the rest of our lives. I want to be open to c

I have someone who is the cause of some of my greatest victories, she was there cheering me on. She is the one person that I could allow to see me in ANY situation. She is the one person I can share EVERYTHING with and not think twice about it. She is the one person that never judged me for my most EMBARASSING choices, who ALWAYS told me the truth and protected me at all costs. She is selfless and caring. I delight in her friendship and I KNOW that no matter what I was doing or going though, She would protect me and be loyal to the end. Even if it meant destroying EVERYTHING else in her life. She was the person who saw me through every small and big event over the past 10 years and whether victory or defeat, she is and will always be in my corner. God has done a lot in our lives over the past 10 years. I met her at church and we began to build a friendship on God, sort of, at least it started that way. We were both walking through some really hard times and I knew that no matter what,