Unapologetically and Honestly Loving Others with Reckless Abandon

But Ruth replied, “Don’t urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if even death separates you and me.” Ruth 1:16&17 Gosh! This is the verse that has been the resonating theme in my life these past few months. Jesus Culture sings about it, so does Chris Tomlin and I am sure many others. But I bring this up because I want you to see something that I am finding out. I have known this all my life but it is more of a reality now that no matter what God wants me to do, I have to choose to be obedient. I am not even just talking about obedience as in I HAVE to refrain from sexual activity until I am married, OR I have to be obedient and be nice to those people. I am not talking about obligatory obedience, that really isn't obedience at all. It is just that, an obligation

So as life has changed in our family with the arrival of Baby Ella, some of the family dynamics have just begun to be magnified. I KNOW that I am not the greatest person to live with and I can totally annoy people because of my kick back attitude. I tend to just rely on Jesus and saying that sometimes to a planner isn't always a smart thing. Now please don't misunderstand what I am trying to say in this. I am not trying to air our dirty laundry or anything like that, but I do want you to feel comfort in this if you have a family like mine. I LOVE my family dearly and I have just come to certain realizations about them. My parents love me and desire me to be the best me I can, and I love them for it, but this can also hurt me because they want to push me to be that person instead of lead me there. My sister and I, growing up didn't get along much, but lately I have truly realized that I was the major problem in that and I am learning how to fix this. I asked the Lord the oth

I am currently, as I write this, sitting in a hospital waiting room, my beautiful baby sister is in labor and we are waiting for the miracle of life. But let me tell you that from an outsider looking in, she is not enjoying the process. Her body is doing all the things that it needs to for the miracle of life to happen but I can tell you that it isn't easy and it isn't quick. There is a natural process and you have to walk through all the stages of that process to acquire the end result. There isn't really a way to get the end result of a beautiful baby with out pain and without the mother shedding blood. Whether it be by C-Section or by natural birthing methods, but both of those call for blood shed and some possible pain. Yes this is on my mind since I am sitting here, but it is also on my mind because, not in the same physical way that my sister is walking through this process, but God is walking me through this process spiritually. I am walking through the struggle of a

I can honestly say that I haven't ever been stretched this much as I am walking through this season right now and watching God stretch not only me, but those around me. I am so excited and nervous a bit to see what God is going to do but I am sure just by looking at my blog as to what area of the world God has truly place not just on my heart but in it. I have such a love for the people of Tonga and can't wait to join them on their journey's in life. So incase you are unaware as to what God is doing in my life, God has set a DEEP desire for me to take what I can from here and go about 5000 miles across the Pacific Ocean to this amazing little country with 176 islands called Tonga. No I didn't sneeze, The Kingdom of Tonga is an amazing place and I can't wait to be there. I know that this may come as a shock to you but God is daily drawing me to go and show others what God's heart is for them. I am not sure how long I will be there, I have decided that I need to a