Unapologetically and Honestly Loving Others with Reckless Abandon

Tonight was one of those nights that I wouldn't wish on even my worst enemy, well on Satan but no one else. The ache in my heart and the pain I feel even now, after the shower of God's peace cleans up, continues to bring tears to my eyes. I love God with all that I am and I have fully dedicated my life to do what He has called me to do even when it seems crazy and isn't the popular thing to do. I know that to others I look as if I am a failure and that I look to be a wondering child, when the reality is that I am right where I am supposed to be. I know this because everyday the fight in me gets stronger to do what God has called of me, and yet my circumstances want to lie and say otherwise. I don't want to be a victim to my circumstances. God didn't create me to be restrained by my circumstances, I am to be free from them and see them as trivial in certain areas. I am not sure that even in all the human words there are that I will be able to explain this well, but I

Today seems to be one of those days where your shoes don't feel right on, your wanting things to go one way and they take a turn, you are happy to be alive and yet something/someone is pushing you to be upset instead. I can feel the struggle today!!! I feel it most days but for some reason I feel the fight stronger today and I know that there HAS to be something UNSEEN going on. These days are alot of times to strengthen us but also there is an underlined battle, the unseen things that cause the seen things to be harder. If you aren't understanding what I mean or if you don't seem to grasp it fully hear me out. Today is NEW full of life, adventure, new encounters and new discoveries, yet YESTERDAY seems to still try and linger when it is no longer welcome. This day is new, my bible says it is, and still the past wants to hold on as if it has a right to. Well it doesn't and in this struggle of who wins today we feel this fight when someone doesn't agree with your cho