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How can you be so sure?

How can you be 100% sure that you hear God all the time about everything? I am not always sure. I walk around in life knowing certain moments that I hear His voice more clearly and I know that I walk around and I can feel Him closer to me. I try and do the best I can to give him glory in all I do. I know that when I hear him and I give him the Glory even if I heard wrong, but he still gets the glory and all the praise, sometimes that is what it is about. He wants us to Glorify him in ALL we do. What does that look like? I am not sure but I can make a speculation. I think that no matter what we think or do, as long as in the end others see Jesus alittle more clearly and we are invisible. Then I think it is all worth it. I don't want the glory, there is too much pressure in that. I want God to have that because I know he will do a better job than me and He always has my best in mind anyways. Why not let him, at least then I can trust it WILL get done right! The point of faith is to

Drifting

I catch myself drifting off in the secret corodors of my mind. I want to see change in BIG and little ways everyday. I imagine that I will be a mom and I laugh at the thought of my kids and how funny they will be. Then I move to work and how much I will love to be able to perfect my craft and get better at what God has destined me for, then I see ministry. I dreamt before about the ministry that I will be involved in and I know that there is going to be alot of peoples lives I will be allowed to touch by God's grace. Then I am jolted back to reality and see that I am sitting here in an office, waiting for it to be the time where I can leave this special place that the Lord has used to reform me. He has given me more vision here and more confidence that He is in control. Something in my life that I have wanted to happen for so long seemed as if it were going to be close and so amazing, then just like life usually happens, Things change. My plans are derailed and I move along with al

Life

Life is so funny how it twists and turns, brings life and death. Love and anger, jealousy and joy, grace and pain, mercy and suffering, and yet in all these emotions provoked or not is a God who loves you so much that He would experience all this and more just for your life in exchange. It is really amazing to think that someone would love me that much to surrender his life for mine. For someone to stand in the gap and be the bridge is such an amazing thing that I just can’t even take it. I know that this may seem childlike or simple minded to be amazed at this but in my life and even with the best examples I know to exemplify Christ’s love isn’t ever demonstrated this way. I know part of it is just because Christ had come to be the sacrificial Lamb for us all but at the same time, I wasn’t around and he knew that I would still mess up and sin A LOT, yet he died with me in mind. Maybe because Easter is still lingering in the air is this truth so sweet, maybe it is because spring is her