Brutal Honesty

Today I am sharing two songs that are my heart towards God. I listen to them all the time and I love what they convey. The first is what I see myself doing A LOT and desire to change. The second is usually how I feel after I have sat in His presence and just taken Him in. The middle portion is where He does all the work. I hope this blesses you. I am being RAW and exposing a bit of what I am feeling even at this moment. I just want you to know that if you feel this way too, God is BIGGER! Thank you for letting me share my heart today, openly and honestly.

"You turned water into wine - how extraordinary
Gave sight to the blind - and still I carry
My own load when you told me
To take your yoke ‘cause yours is easy
And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't wanna believe
That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah!
I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't understand
that you're big enough But you're big enough Jesus
You turned darkness into light - keep my lamp burning
And you are my everything
There's no denying, your love is so amazing
And even though my problems seem typical
Nothing for you is ever too difficult
You never have reservations - love without limitations
And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't wanna believe
That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah!
Oh, no matter how I try to get around it - I'm reminded
Wherever I go I'm totally surrounded
It's all about you - I can never doubt you
Even if I wanted to…And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't wanna believe
That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah!"-Big Enough, by Ayiesha Woods


Lord, I release my will to you. I am so sorry that my HOPE of good things to come to me in the future has not been in you, or in anything. I am reverting back to thinking that I am totally unworthy of anything good. I know that you love me and I know that you have an amazing plan for my life. I hate that I have allowed this carnal thinking to settle in at all. I am in dyer need of you. Thank you that you love me just as I am and that you desire to change my outlook on my life. Thank you that you desire to give me good gifts. I have to trust that you desire to bless me with things and I just need to ask you for them. I am sorry for loosing my HOPE that is in you. I just feel selfish for asking you to bring things into my life when I am wanting you to know that ultimately I am TOTALLY satisfied with YOU alone. I believe that you KNOW my heart and that you desire to bless me with the things that I have longed for and desired for a long time. I am sorry for withholding myself at times from you and others because of fear. I desire to be FEARLESS and I desire to be you to others. I know that to some, I am the ONLY Jesus they will ever see and I sooooo desire that I will do you justice. I know that I am only human, I just want them to see you. Father I desire to disappear and allow ONLY YOU to be seen in me. Thank you so much for the passion for the lost, thank you so much for the passion to make YOUR NAME known, and thank you for making me ABLE to do all of these things. Thank you so much for your love. Thank you so much that you have given me life and a heart to follow you. Thank you that you have changed my life so completely that I don’t even recognize myself sometimes. Thank you that you have given me vision and given me life. Thank you that YOUR life is what I live for. Thank you that I desire to tell YOUR story and in that mine is seen. Father, I don’t want or need credit for anything, I just desire to give you GLORY. All that I am is yours, all that I have is yours, and all that I ever need is yours. Thank you for making me able to love, Please help me now to love like breathing. Thank you for giving me eyes to see, please let me see others with your eyes. Thank you for giving me a voice to sing, please let me only sing YOUR praises ALL of my DAYS. Thank you for giving me hands, please allow them to be you hands to others. Thank you for giving me a mouth, please allow my mouth to speak of YOUR GREATNESS all of my days. Thank you for giving me words, please allow none of them to fall to the ground like Samuel. Thank you for giving me ears, please allow me to hear your voice, and the cries of the lost. Thank you for giving me feet, please allow me to go to places that need you. Thank you for giving your life, so that I may have a good one, and eternally be with you in Heaven. Thank you for all that YOU have done, to make it possible for us to live here on earth WITH YOU. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, that when we feel defeated and when things just don’t make sense that you still remain and that your love is what gets us through. Thank you.

“I will understand
If they can't comprehend
All of the time we spend
'Cause it's beautiful
When you speak to me
Whispering softly
Love sweet melodies
That are beautiful
I'm in love with you
So in love with you
And they just don't know what you do to me
I'm in love with you
So in love with you
And they'll never know
What you do to me
Clothing me in righteousness
Lord I must confess
I hold you to your promises
That are beautiful
You've become my everything
Your presence makes me weak
'Til there are no words to speak
But "Oh so beautiful "
I'm in love with you
So in love with you
And they just don't know
what you do to me
I'm in love with you
So in love with you
And they'll never know
What you do to me
They don't really know what you do to me
They don't understand how you make me free
When we're all alone and it's me and you
There's not enough expression for the things you do
I'm in love with you
So in love with you
And they just don't know what you do to me
I'm in love with you
So in love with you And they'll never know
What you do to me”-What you do to me, Ayiesha
Woods

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