Hope and Grace from Heaven!

I had a good night tonight. I got to spend time with some of my favorite people in my life. God has really blessed me with little girls that love me and that I love so much! I love you too Sarah and Chaddy! I want you to picture the best feeling of home that when you walk into a house and you hear one say "Hi Tamara!" and the other say "TT" I just love it and it is such a sweet place to rest.

What comes to your mind when you think of Hope? When I think of Hope a smile comes to my face and tears, at times, to my eyes. Most think of something good that is about to happen, or even the Hope of the future. Well I think of a beautiful princess who loves horses and laughs when you tickle her. A bounce in her step and excitment of her bright future. Someone curious to know everything and loves you as you are. About a year and a half ago God really grabbed my heart, although He had been pursuing me and loving me long before that. He did it in a little girl named Hope. He got my attention and captured my heart with Her bright smile and her laugh that makes me smile when I am down. I know that not many can understand if you don't know her but there is a sense of God in her gentleness and her love for me. Someone that was so far from God's heart at the time. I love that little girl and I am not sure if she will ever understand the vessel that she was and how greatly God has pursued me by her great big heart. To see a piece of string and to cry because the rest of its family was in a tree, will never make sense to me but it does to her. She has such a sense of family even now I just love to see Jesus in Children. I see how true it is to have faith like a child. Hopey you make me smile! Thanks!

Now you are wondering how does Grace fit in. What do you think of when you hear Grace? I think of a blond haired, blue-eyed little girl with the middle name of Grace. Hope's younger sister, or as we lovingly call her, Naynay. I love it! See I was in desperate need of God's grace. I know that God's timing is perfect and to see the love that she had for me being so young was really new to me. I know that God did that on purpose and I am so grateful for it. I cannot eloquently enough ever put into words what God did through her. I know that I have loved kids since I was one and probably in diapers I did, but this one is different. See my heart was really hard and callous with the things of this world and through her tears and love God opened my heart in a new way. I know what love is and I know how to love people but this was different. When she would cry I would because God needed my heart opened and what better way to do that then through children. To be in a hard place and have your friends pray for you is just an amazing blessing in itself. Then to have a baby, who loves you, climb in your lap and give you a hug because you are crying...to me that IS Grace.I am sure that this isn't making sense to you but my hearts cry is that one day this little girl, who was so uniquely placed in my life, would see how blessed I am because of her. She was a gift in my time of need. God captured my heart through the eyes of another and then He gently restored me. Thank you Jesus for loving me that much!!!!

See to me the two go hand in hand. When you get the loving Grace of the Father, Hope just come natural. When you have the Hope of heaven you understand His Amazing Grace. See you can't have one without the other and neither can I...

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Sarah Markley said…
Wow! You are amazing, Tamara. Thank you for writing all of this and being so real. I know that you love my kids with your whole heart. I really didn't have any idea how much they have affected you. What a beautiful thing! They totally love you so much!
August 2, 2007 at 2:22 PM
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