Thanks!

Thank you Jesus for the cross. Thank you Jesus that I have full access to the Holy of Holies. Thank you that I am able to boldly approach the throne of grace and I am encouraged to. But in reality and in Lehman's terms what does that really mean? Can I just walk up to God and say, "Hey this is what I want and (think) I need to give it to me NOW!" By NO means is that what it is, and it is also not bashfully and quietly stammering to get the words out. I believe it is somewhere in the middle where you ask but trust that the one you are asking knows you a bit better than you know yourself and also has your best in mind. He desires to with hold NO good thing from you but we aren't always sure what a good thing is...sometimes a good thing is to feel a bit of pain so you understand someone better. Or to see someone you love suffer so that you can have compassion on others around you. Sometimes it is even NOT getting what you think you want because there is a lesson in understanding patience. I think that alot of times in our culture we thing that when we get all we want that is a good thing but ever heard of Greed, Gluttony, Slothfulness, Gossip, or Murder? Any of these things ring a bell. I believe that Boldness is when we ask in faith but also leave the rest to God. he is gracious and He desires to give good gifts to His kids. He also knows what will bring out the best in us. He knows that even though I think that I should have the right to be married. Most of my close friends are and I feel like I deserve to be happy, I remain His and singlfulfilled but to make me stronger and my testimony stronger. I have my days of feeling sorry e. He does that for my character and my future ministry, more than for my comfort now. I know though that God has put those desires in my heart not to torture me with them never being for myself and then I have days like today when I realize that I would much rather be close to HIM and IN His presence at ALL times than to be out of it because I want something I think will fulfill me better. Just like Moses said that he wanted God's presence with him more than he wanted the promised land. I chose a relationship with the Almighty over something I want and desire, Marriage, my promised land. I want to show forth as precious lasting Jewels or Medal, rather than something that isn't HIS PERFECT WILL! Thank you Jesus for the gifts that come in very unusual packages. I love you Lord!

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