Today!

Today has been real eye opening day for me. I have been sitting here thinking and praying for my friends. I know that today has been a hard day for us all in different ways but I am glad to see in me what I never thought I would. I have been trying to be a support and a friend today as well as a counselor and a listening ear for those who need that from me. I have it in me to know that God is doing things in the world today that are causing some strife in lives around me. I can see it first hand. I know that I have had a hard time lately with the Sweet Sting of Loneliness coming over me but today I choose that instead of strife. That may seem weird or that may be something that you have chosen in the past but I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in my life. If I had strife today as well I wouldn’t be able to be a listening ear and a counselor for the ones who needed me. I am very grateful that God has given me this burden to carry so that the ones I love can benefit. That is my heart for my friends. I want them to benefit from my situation even if it is hard. God told me a while ago that I am to remain single right now because my friends need me to be, at first that seemed hard to understand. After today I am glad that I can do that for my friends. I am going to try as hard as I can not to complain about my loneliness and to enjoy the lack of strife in my days as a single woman. I know that those days are bound to come even if I am single but I know they are less and I can always go home, cry about it and then go to bed. I can deal with it on my own and with God. When there is another person involved in your life that needs to and has the right to be apart of it all I see makes things complex sometimes. I am starting to see how great singleness can be today for me and not that I always want to be here but I am rejoicing in it today. I may not get to have this tomorrow and my life can change in an instant so Thank you Lord that I am single TODAY!!!! Thanks for showing me that it is ok for me to be happy with where I am today. Thank you for showing me that I can look at life and it doesn’t always have to be greener on the other side. It can be green on my side, in my life, today, exactly where I am.

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