Change

As I know that change is inevitable there are very few times in my life that I actually desire it. The first time was when I wanted 20 stairs in my house. I remember being like 3, 4 and 5 years old telling my mom as I walked through my one story house kitchen, "I am going up stairs mom to my room. I have a lot to do." She just smiled and nodded at me as I pass her making cookies. The next time was when I wanted my best friend, who while I was growing up was my life, to near me and go to school with me. God answered the school prayer first, and then the moving situation. As I grew things in my life changed and I was the one holding on and fighting with all my might. I still tend to fight change but I know now the fight in me is for another reason. I was always afraid of the unknown before, then for a while I was all about change ALL the time. I got bored and wanted to just let change rule me. Now I have come to the middle ground. I am not all about it like I was when I would jump the gun and just change things all the time. I have now learned how to walk the middle of this road, to be able to embrace change when the time is right, and to not push for it or rush it when the things in my life aren't ready. I want to get better at embracing it and I want to get better at not feeling like it will never happen. I am in the process now of trying to enjoy every moment and appreciate "The Process" more than ever before. I know that comes with time and life experience but I want to get better at it and work towards being able to let go of things that aren't supposed to be apart of my life and to embrace the things that are, whether I am ready or not. Thank you Jesus for "The Process", I just want to give God all the Glory and if it means hurt and pain for HIS GLORY then in the end it is all worth it.

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