Dead, Gone and Bringing RAIN!!!

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. It can come in all shapes, sizes, colors, and people. You just get back up and move along. You can’t allow it to keep you down forever. You will have to get up and fight. I have been the walking wounded for some time now and I know that things are painful and you loose those that you love, you loose people that you care about and its always good to know how strong you really are. These are things that we need to be reminded of often. It isn’t so hard to see your own strength when things are good, it takes those times that you are literally the walking wounded to see how much strength you have and how you can grow from it. Like Job we have to love God even when it hurts. Love is never easy but it is always the better way. Just keep in mind that Love never lets you down, People do!!! In my bible is says God is Love, and so because of that, you have to know that He does NOT disappoint, because He knows what is best for us. One of my favorite songs is Dead and Gone, by T.I. This may seem weird and I am going to allow you to read some of the lyrics in a moment but I wanted to explain why this song gives me hope. I have been wounded, in this war that we each fight everyday, many times and that is alright by me. Some wounds were superficial and some are deep to the core of who I am. This last core wound nearly struck me down in a different way than before. See most of the times before they been direct attacks on my family members and if they were attacks on me then I feel they were well deserved. Walking in sin has that consequence and I knew that and was willing to take responsibility for my actions. But this time was different, this time, it was directed at me. This time I was called names and told that I was a sinner who doesn’t know how to walk with God. Now, I rededicated my life to the Lord about 3 ½ years ago now and I was told that I have only been a Christian for that long and that nothing before mattered. I get that to a point but in my quiet times with the Lord, NEVER once did He say that to me. He told me that I would be RESTORED to better than I was before. Now that tells me that I was there before and yet turned away and now God is on the thrown of my heart once again, where He belongs. Sometime I will tell you how He was violently removed from His rightful place by me but not today. I want you to see what happened when He was gloriously placed back on it. I want you to read the lyrics first and then I will continue the process of His return.

I turn my head to the east, I don't see nobody by my sideI turn my head to the west, still nobody in sightSo I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call prideThat old me's dead and gone but the new me will be alrightI turn my head to the east, I don't see nobody by my sideI turn my head to the west, still nobody in sightSo I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call prideThat old me's dead and gone but the new me will be alright, 'causeOh hey, I've been travelin' on this road too longJust tryin' to find my way back homeBut the old me's dead and goneDead and goneAnd oh hey, I've been travelin' on this road too longJust tryin' to find my way back homeBut the old me's dead and goneDead and gone.

This song is totally what happened and that was to allow God to show me that all I need is Him. All I need to do is run to Him and let His love fill my life. I was utterly cut to my core and as this happened God allowed me the time I needed to process this. You don’t ever come out of major injury or surgery totally 100% better the next day. Any Dr. will tell you that your physical body needs time to heal, just as much as your spirit does. There is a process that takes place, as you continue to lay it down, and realize that God is your ONLY option of being rescued and healed. There are so many things that happen to me but the most important one is that that God REACHED down and RESCUED me from the ASHES I was in. I was laying down ready to die. I may have but there was a glimmer of hope for me. The best way to describe this glimmer is like when one small piece of left over glitter is found on something after days of showers and washing clothes, there was this moment I saw it. It was ordained by God Himself but it was in that moment that I found hope. I haven't been the same since. So now the song I sing is a song called, “Bring the Rain” by MercyMe and I will leave you with those lyrics:

I can count a million times People asking me how I Can praise You with all that I've gone throughThe question just amazes me Can circumstances possibly Change who I forever am in You Maybe since my life was changed Long before these rainy days It's never really ever crossed my mind To turn my back on you, oh Lord My only shelter from the storm But instead I draw closer through these times So I pray Bring me joy, bring me peace Bring the chance to be free Bring me anything that brings You glory And I know there'll be days When this life brings me pain But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus, bring the rain I am yours regardless of the clouds that may loom above because you are much greater than my pain you who made a way for me suffering your destiny so tell me whats a little rain Holy, holy, holy Holy, holy, holy is the lord God almighty is the lord God almighty I'm forever singing
everybody singing Holy holy holyyou are holy you are holy