Unapologetically and Honestly Loving Others with Reckless Abandon

I know it has been a long time since I have done this so HERE WE GO!!!!! Ok so at this moment in my life God is testing my faith in a new way. I know that we always need to be stretched or we get complacent. I really have been blessed by how God is allowing things that I know I have been praying for so long to happen, are happening. YAY!!!! Thank you Jesus. Just small things like getting an unexpected opportunity to spend some time with old friends. Its amazing to get to play with little children who love you just because of who you are. I love that! It is just such a blessing to be able to see how amazing God is and how involved He desires to be in our daily lives. I am learning more how to allow him to be apart of everything I do and including him in my life. I am just so blessed to be in this place at this time. I love Him for wanting to be apart of it all. I desire to bring him more and more in my daily activities. Maybe that is something we need to ask him about, what does he desi...

Today I got a glimpse into some people who I thought were changing and to see that they aren't makes me want to test my own heart. I never want to be one of those people who doesn't allow others to change and yet who wants to keep them in a box that I have placed them in. I want to allow others to grow and let them change at their own pace. I have someone I know who is close to me that has been trying to change and yet they can't seem to really LET GO of all they need to. There is a person in their life that they hold on to even if it isn't good for them. I love this person so very much but I know that I need to allow them to change and make their own choices. I can't do it for them, I can't tell them what to do even though I want to and require them to change. As they allow me to be that way, I need to give them the same grace. Although, how do you do that with someone you care about and want to see them freed, once and for all, of all the things that hold them...

Ok so walking in Gods will isn't EVER easy but it is ALWAYS RIGHT!!! I have to make sure that my attitude and my mind is in the right place when I make choices that don't seem very logical. I understand that God works in mysterious ways, so who can't I make a choice that is causing me to take a leap of faith and totally trust God, instead of just getting by on yesterdays MANNA! I want to live on new manna, fresh, just for today. I have a hard time when God confirms things over and over again, that this is what I am supposed to be doing and yet, I know it is going to be scary and hard. Even now as I write this, God shows me that his favor and his faithfulness are here. My friend told me that as long as your heart is in the right place and you are doing all you can to please God he will lead you. You can't go wrong, but you can fall, the whole point of our walk is to see how we respond when we fall, and where we go. I know for a fact that God himself has been speaking to ...

Well Here I go!!! God spoke to me today and no matter what you think, I know he did. No matter what I think or how I feel, when God talks, I listen...I decided along time ago that no matter what I would obey His voice. So that is what I am doing! Its called walking by Faith, and not by sight. I am stepping out of the boat and I am going to walk on water like PETER did!!! I am going to WALK ON WATER!!!! Its also very hard when others don't understand or didn't hear what you did. I know that I don't have to answer to anyone except God in reality, but sometimes it is also important to have enough respect for the circumstance to explain your decisions. I am taking back my life from others who I feel like I have allowed the role I should have assumed along time ago. I am reclaiming MY LIFE! Not to live for me, or to waste as I did before but to live it the way I was meant to, In total surrender and worship to God. I know that I am ready, willing and able to do what God has calle...

My Child, Please allow me to share with you my heart for you, some may be hard to read but know that I have your best interest at heart and I love you, deeply. Thank you for allowing me to bare your burdens, Thank you for crying out to me from the depths of your soul. Know that I AM Holy and Just, as well as the Lover of your soul. I AM as consistent as the waves. I love you with an everlasting love, love that will not falter with the wind and will not die or grow cold. It will not fade with years gone by, change with the seasons, or lessen by your choices. I love you with all that I AM and I love you with all that I know you can be. There is so much more for you My Love, there is a depth that you could never imagine, I want to take you to. There are things in you that I know you want to change NOW but please allow me to do what I need, so that you can see things differently. I know that you are afraid to let go with all of you and just trust. I know that holding on to the past will n...

This morning I was awaken to some amazing songs in worship, and I was just so blessed. Then I realized what time it was and that I needed to get up and be to work early. I know that things aren't always how they seem and there are devised intentions in others to either go after or protect. I know that there are things in life that aren't to be taken lightly yet others need to be taken with a grain of salt. I know that in life you can have a great moment, even during the wee hours in worship, and the next get ambushed. I know that our stuggle isn't against flesh and blood, but against the prince of palities and powers of this dark world. I know that and yet there are moments, not that I forget, but that I just need something physical to make responsible. I want to not be so concerned with the name that I have, as I am concerned as the name that I CARRY with me! I hope you understand the difference. I want to make sure that the name that I carry with me isn't tainted by m...

I am realizing that things in my life are changing and different than I would have planned but I am so glad that they are better than I would have thought. I love my life even if things aren't how I planned, and even if things are rough. I have an inspiration to be a better person. Even tonight we were talking and I realized that I am sometimes hard on me and others and I want to allow others to be themselves. It shouldn't matter because others let me be me so I need to let them have the same grace. I desire to love others that way. I have such an example and I love that I am learning so much more. I love it. I want to be better, I want to love more and I want to show others how to do that. I love that God is showing me more of himself. Especially when it is in other people, and reflecting God's heart for others. I am just so blessed to have that kind of example in my life. Our conversations are always encouraging to me and I love that there is so much understanding. I am j...