Unapologetically and Honestly Loving Others with Reckless Abandon

So, Thursday night I was up way too late, yet because of my obedience God is always faithful in the midst of that. I was up to spend time in my word and to share my heart with MY creator. This question about the Levites not getting land and why has been bugging me. I knew why and I could explain it but I couldn't find the reference so last night was my time to seek. It was about seeking His heart and not finding the answer, yet in His faithfulness, that is what he is and does. So the answer starts in Genesis 34 with the story of Dinah and Shechem. "And Dinah the daughter of Leah, which she bare unto Jacob, went out to see the daughters of the land. And when Shechem the son of Hamor the Hivite, prince of the country, saw her, he took her, and lay with her, and defiled her. And his soul clave unto Dinah the daughter of Jacob, and he loved the damsel, and spake kindly unto the damsel. And Shechem spake unto his father Hamor, saying, Get me this damsel to wife. And Jacob heard tha...

I was getting ready to go to sleep at this hour as others are peacefully resting and there like a faithful friend, God speaks in his infinite wisdom for me to write. So here I am... Have you ever thought about the difference between Liberty and Freedom? Why is freedom something we take advantage of? Why is liberty not used unless describing something you do, like "I took the liberty of..."? I have never claimed to have all the answers but maybe this will atleast be thought provoking. I believe that Liberty is something you take, it is ground that we tread on to accomplish something. Whether it be the liberty of taking the trash out before being asked to, or getting someone a glass of water. I believe it all comes from taking something by choice. Ok so we have taking something by choice but what about something that is given to you. Freedom is fought for by our amazing faithful soldiers and yet freedom doesn't seem to be taken it seems to be given. Liberty seems to be take...

"Well, I was eight years old when I decided to follow Jesus I started down that road Somebody told me that this path that leads to heaven Will not be the easy way Well I found that to be true Oh, but I also found, I found out there's CHORUS No better place on earth than the road that leads to heaven No other place I'd rather be No better place on earth than the road that leads to heaven No better place to be Now I know this road has a final destination But I also know that if we're only looking for the prize that's waiting We'll miss so much along the way 'Cause Jesus came to bring us life in the here and now And to show us that there's CHORUS No better place on earth than the road that leads to heaven No other place I'd rather be No better place on earth than the road that leads to heaven No better place to be BRIDGE I know this path we travel on Is very straight and narrow But I've looked down other roads along the way And from all I've se...

Being younger and knowing that one day I would meet other people who shared apart of who I am, always made me excited to see what God was going to do in my life. Not knowing what was really in my heart. But I know that this life is WAY to short and that it isn't always nice, even if you are. I know that hearing what the world says about you ISN'T WHO YOU ARE unless you let it be. I did for a long time and it required me to see that I was doing that to change. You don't have to live down to their expectations of you. No matter who is telling you that. Learning how to break free from other people's underestimations of you is something that I am daily retraining my brain how to do. I know that this may seem weird coming from someone like me but I have always had a violent rebelliousness about me, as a young child it was a good thing because I violently rebelled against the enemy. Yet when I got older it became a violent rebellion against "THE CHURCH". I never STO...

This past week I have walked with some friends through so very hard things and the thing that I am reminded of the most is...Jesus is where it all starts, and you HAVE to recognize that. He will change you and He will allow you to be who you need to be in Him. I just recently got some very difficult news and considering it was WAY bigger than I am I went and got Godly advice. The best advice I got in how to deal with it was, "It all starts at the cross, to find others, you have to intersect at the cross." Thank you for the advice because that goes for anything. When you are looking to change or see others change it all starts with refocusing your eyes on the Cross and admitting that you need to start changing first. Until this is recognized, nothing else will work. Jesus HAS to be where your focus lies and Jesus HAS to be where YOU Yourself begin to change. No family, friendship, relationship, or marriage will work without this humbling self examination and recognition. There...

I am not sure if you have sisters but I have alot. I am not talking about sisters in Christ, I am talking about clothes sharing/fighting, bathroom stealing, yelling, screaming, loving, laughing, arguing, hitting, hugging, favor picking, mean word throwing, lovable, hateable, irritating, beautiful, Godly, annoying, but mostly family sisters. I have 3 biological sisters, one adopted sister, and one stand-in sister. I think that brings my total up to 5. All of them are beautiful in their own ways. One of them I don't know at all. I am not even sure she wants anything to do with me, in fact I am pretty sure she doesn't. So really lets focus on the other 4. Now if I were to really count how many of my closest friends are like sisters in that they have poured into my life and lovingly allowed me to pour into theirs I think the total is more than I have fingers. I love them all dearly and yet today I want to talk about these 4 and what they represent to me. I will name them and I will...

I have always felt a sense of being out of place and if you read my previous post that partly was because of the questions, I also believe that it was because I had to have questions for another part of my story to come true. I have to warn you that this isn't going to be in order because there are way too many aspects of my life that are all connected so I am going as I am directed... As these questions progressed in my ears, I grew more curious. I knew that I needed to begin to seek out my family even if I ended up with a dead end, or problems. See in my mind when I was younger I wanted to wait until I was married and not living in my parents house to find my family, just in case there was some problems, but God had other things in store. When I was in the summer before me entering my Esthetics class, I had this very STRONG desire to seek my family out. I had heard one time that when you make BIG choices in your life you should take a week before making a BIG purchase or making...

My friend asked me the other day if I was going to start to write my testimony out on here. Well I decided that I think it may be time for certain things. I know that I have eluded to certain aspects of my life and I am not sure what you know or don’t know about me but I will tell you what I believe I need to share. Other things will be left for later, a book or other things I will write. So here is the first of many about me. I am adopted and as a young girl, I mean 2, 3, and 4 years old. I struggled with many questions. Who I looked like and who I talked like, why I reacted the way I did and who’s smile I had. Although I had an amazing childhood and was definitely allowed to have a childhood, which I am very aware that others were not afforded these necessary and simple luxuries I was allowed well into my teen years. These questions, I am aware, are not your typical questions but not having anything to go on other than my mom telling me that I was special, that her, my dad and...

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. It can come in all shapes, sizes, colors, and people. You just get back up and move along. You can’t allow it to keep you down forever. You will have to get up and fight. I have been the walking wounded for some time now and I know that things are painful and you loose those that you love, you loose people that you care about and its always good to know how strong you really are. These are things that we need to be reminded of often. It isn’t so hard to see your own strength when things are good, it takes those times that you are literally the walking wounded to see how much strength you have and how you can grow from it. Like Job we have to love God even when it hurts. Love is never easy but it is always the better way. Just keep in mind that Love never lets you down, People do!!! In my bible is says God is Love, and so because of that, you have to know that He does NOT disappoint, because He knows what is best for us. One of my favo...