Drifting

I catch myself drifting off in the secret corodors of my mind. I want to see change in BIG and little ways everyday. I imagine that I will be a mom and I laugh at the thought of my kids and how funny they will be. Then I move to work and how much I will love to be able to perfect my craft and get better at what God has destined me for, then I see ministry. I dreamt before about the ministry that I will be involved in and I know that there is going to be alot of peoples lives I will be allowed to touch by God's grace. Then I am jolted back to reality and see that I am sitting here in an office, waiting for it to be the time where I can leave this special place that the Lord has used to reform me. He has given me more vision here and more confidence that He is in control. Something in my life that I have wanted to happen for so long seemed as if it were going to be close and so amazing, then just like life usually happens, Things change. My plans are derailed and I move along with alittle less than me to go on the journey. I know I can either wait for pieces of my heart to return to me and maybe get stuck and complacent in this waiting or I can move along the road of life and realize that those pieces will find me. I can be a better person and not get caught in the waiting game. I know that life is all about surprises and so I am ready for my Immediately and Suddenly. I am wanting God to blow me away but I want to be so careful to not get infront of Him. I want His will and timing.

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Sarah Markley said…
you are so special, tamara, and one of my best friends.=)
April 13, 2008 at 6:39 PM
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