Unapologetically and Honestly Loving Others with Reckless Abandon

I was listening to a sermon this morning by John Courson and He was talking about a portion of the children's books " The Chronicles of Narnia." These words hit me like a ton of bricks, I love what C.S. Lewis was trying to get across when he wrote this. Aslan and Lucy are in a conversation and Lucy tells Aslan that she is thirsty. Now knowing that Aslan is a representation of Jesus Christ and so I hope you see the point I am trying to make. Aslan responds to her by telling her,"Drink of the water, Lucy." "If I drink of the water, will you promise not to eat me?" "NO! I devour kingdoms and destroy nations. I do what I choose and there is no one that can stop me. I make no promise to you." She looks at Aslan,"Well then, If you don't promise not to eat me, then I won't drink of the water." "Then you'll thirst to death, Lucy." So then she chooses to drink, and nothing happens. I agree with John Courson when he said...

How is it that one day can bring you such joy like a baby's birth and then the next can bring you such anguish? I don't know the answer to that question but I know that there is a plan and a reason why. I was indirectly affected by tragedy in one instant and then almost the same minute that my mom and I were praying for that I get a call about a great victory. I had to say that was a very bitter sweet moment. What does that even mean? I am not sure but I know that life does funny things like that. I know that one sweet day I will be able to ask my creator that pushing question but for the time being I will live in the moment no matter how bitter sweet it is...

I was listening to a song the other day and I was really convicted and ashamed about the way that I act sometimes. Then today I heard that song again and it brought different meaning to me. It is so cool how that happens just like with bible, verses you read, something over and over again and then one day it hits you sideways. That is exactly what this did. The lyrics are refreshing at the same time they are convicting. "There's not a victory, without a fight. There's not a sunrise, without a night. And there's not a purchase without a cost. And there's not a Crown, without a Cross." (Michael English) I am just so amazed at how great those words are and yet how soon I forget them. Everything comes at a price nomatter how great or small it is always costs someone something. I was struggling the other night because I was having a hard time being with some particular friends and being without a boyfriend or husband. As usual I was starting to cry and feel sorry f...

Today I was singing in church and an overwhelming sense of need for God came over me. It hasn't really left but it is something that is different today than before. I hate to see others in pain and not really be able to do or say anything that makes the situation better. I know there are alot of people in my church continually hurting. I see it in their eyes as I look around the room during worship. I see the lonely mother reaching for the glimpse of God's touch today, I see the kid who folds his hands and says nothing, I see the children not sure if they need to be too cool to worship or if they need to just do what their heart tells them, I also see the single girls who aren't sure why they have gotten alittle bitter at God because MR. Right hasn't shown up yet. In all that, the overwhelming sense of NEED for God comes over me once again. I see it not only in the Christians I see every week I see it at work daily. The need for God is so Great and I think that othe...

I have to say that the other night I had my 10 year reunion and I am just amazed at all that God has done and is doing even now. I got to see alot of people that I haven't seen in a long time. I love it and I am just so excited to now maybe be able to stay in touch with those people. I am just so blessed to have been able to see two people who were an example to me in my youth and even now. I was so blessed to see how God can change a heart and keep it close to Him. There was a couple in my class that God had changed towards his heart, then there were others that I didn't see the light in their eyes anymore. There is just something about the love of Jesus that when you have it in you others can see. I never really noticed it until it wasn't in me for so long and yet I could see it in others and I missed it. One day God totally restored it to more than before and changed me in the process it was nice to see that in others. I just wanted to say thanks to them for being an exa...

As I drove home from work today I was listening to a song that makes me want to share the love of Christ to everyone. I just figured what better way to do that then to start here, where it is easier to pour out my heart with a computer. I am preparing in this next season of life and times, to study more about my royalty as a daughter of the Most High King. I know that it is easier said then done but my goal is to make it as much of who I am, as much as loving people like breathing. Those are things that I so desire to be apart of my character. There is so much to be said for people who live that and I sure pray that one day I can somehow be an example to others. In the chorus of this song it talks about letting God speak for her instead of just using her human words to convey what her heart is for others, I sure pray that all the time. I want my heart and intensions to love others as evident as possible and the only real way for that to happen is for them to be the words of Christ and ...

Today as I sat looking around me at others going about their daily lives, mothers taking children to school, an elderly woman shopping for groceries, children playing as if today others didn't remember those lost. It touched my heart and made me so sad that 6 years ago we were all tuned into the television and some afraid to even leave their houses. My, How things change and we loose focus so quickly about how hard things could be and the loss of loved ones. I was sitting there and watching these people I began to think about all those kids who were unaware of all that happened. I thought back to that fateful day when I was asleep in my nice warm bed and I heard my parents talking about what was going on. I didn't know where it was and it just had this sadness all day that I couldn't shake. I looked and watched as the twin towers started to fall and cause such destruction. I wanted today to just remember those children who lost their parents in such a tragic way. I wanted ...

I know that there are so many things that I could say and that I could try to make sure that my words affect others but I want my words to be impacting not for my sake or for the glory to go to me. I have always been the type of person who does better as the side kick or the heroic helper. You can ask anyone I have known for more than 20 minutes that I know that my life is not about me. I am here for one purpose and one purpose only, to Glorify God. I desire others to know that freedom like I do and hopefully better than me. Freedom comes not in what we get to do but what we are purposed to do. We are purposed to take care of the amazing treasures that God has so graciously given to us. For some it is family and children, some it is friendships that last a life time,( I love you Tiff) and others it is work set before us, like missionaries. I know that no matter what the project I want it to be done with my whole heart and I want to do it WELL! Giving God all the glory comes from knowin...

Have you ever written something like a story and then similarly in life it happens? Things like that happen all the time to me. So now I am always careful what I write in hopes that things are always better than I expect. I wrote a story for school one time and then come to find out a few years later it happened. I tell you this so that you know what I am saying is true. Have you ever wanted to make a difference is someone else’s life just for the benefit of someone else and not you? Have you ever thought about your words and the affect they will have as they shoot out your mouth on someone else’s life. Good or bad? Well that is what I am doing now, praying as I write that some how deep down something will tug at your soul. Whether you feel it now or not, that isn’t for me to decide. All I can do is be obedient to what God tells me to do. So here I am writing,… Coming from a Church culture that drives home the fact that once you hit 20 marriage should be your next big go...